I thought love
would help me not to break
but now I know
that’s my mistake.
I beat myself
against your walls
until I’m battered
close to shattered
I never thought I’d be like this
Said I wouldn’t be this way
But here I am
right in the middle of
who I don’t want to be
Every detail memorized
Played on repeat in my restless mind
Unable to unravel
where I went wrong
again
Always afraid
that tomorrow
will be yesterday
and I’ll never get past it
Never get further
Because tomorrow is yesterday
and I’m defeated before I’ve begun
And yet the sun
will rise, despite me
And I can’t help but
feel a feeble flutter of hope
from this broken-winged bird of a heart
that tomorrow can be different
and so can I
and so can you