I filled my home with flowers
Bouquets upon bouquets
In every vase I could find
and some make-shift vases as well
Gorgeous gladiolas
in crimson, yellow, white
Hydrangeas overflowing their vases
like clouds, like rising bread
A dozen white roses
holding their secrets close
beckoning you to lean in
and breathe in their mysteries
Bright gerber daisies, joyous
and forthright
I never have fresh flowers
I don’t buy them for myself
But they were going to be thrown out
so I took them by the armful
More than I could ever need
and arranged them, not so skillfully
And for one afternoon,
I was swathed in scent
of lilies and roses and snap-dragons
But like a cut-flower
it didn’t last.
I’m going out of town in the morning
and so I laid out a large plastic sheet
on the floor of my living room
and collected every carefully-cut flower
every arranged blossom
and laid them reverently in a pile.
It felt like laying them on the pyre.
I wrapped them all together in
the smothering plastic
Bundled them tightly
crushing their fragrant, unsullied petals
and threw them in the dumpster.
Is it strange to grieve their
untimely passing? The waste
of their pristine beauty?
The selfishness of one
brief afternoon filled with
fresh-cut flowers?